Well, it's been 17 days of taking Chantix now. I haven't had a cigarette now for 2 full days.
I did the math.. 20 cigarettes /day for 20 years.. = 20x365x20 = 146,000 cigarettes.
So I've probably smoked 150,000 cigarettes in my lifetime and I'd have to say that is enough. I've gotten everything I'm going to get out of cigarettes. Then to think of the cost.. Today a pack costs about $7.00, that's .35 per cigarette.
I've spend $51,000 on cigarettes. For what? what did I get out of the deal?
I'm really done with this habit.
So like I said, I haven't smoked for about 48 hours. I don't feel like I want a cig, but I do feel very antsy and impatient. BUT I WILL NOT SMOKE!!
I want to stop thinking about smoking, I want to wakeup, shower, get ready, eat breakfast all without the thought of a cigarette crossing my mind. It will come in time.. I look forward to that day.
A guy I work with stood 5 feet from me today, and I was amazed at how string he smelled of cigarettes. He stood behind me looking at me computer screen and I was totally overwhelmed by the smell. Did I smell THAT BAD???
For whatever reason I wasn't the smelliest smoker. Some smokers smell like an ashtray, others not so bad. But wither way, it really stinks..
Now I really want to get the smell out of my truck. I've smoked in it (with a window cracked, and never using the ashtray) for 8 years now. Maybe the smell will never come out, we'll see, but I don't like it anymore.
The Chantix is definitely helping, still need to eat something before taking it, and I still have really weird dreams.. I CAN DO THIS!! At this point I really don't have any desire to smoke. I don't want to spend the money, I don't want to smell bad, I just don't want to.
I've noticed my teeth are whiter too, just after a few days, they are definitely whiter..
More later..
